tary's blog of ridiculous thoughts

faithless

2005-07-03T02:10:00.000-04:00

as some of you might already know, i've decided to quit my fellowship and leave everything behind
why?
because i am just sick and tired of those Christians
i mean... aren't religions supposed to teach the believers the values of life?
yes, most of the Christians there know the bible well, but it's just the knowledge that they possess but not the values found in the bible,
in real life, they are just shitheads (the ones in my fellowship)
they don't respect each other and they don't seem to care shit about the world
for example, i once asked a few groups if they be interested to adopt an african child through world vision for mere $30 a month, which is $3 per person
i was surprised by some of the responses: "$3 a month? u think it's a lot of money? screw you"
whats fucked up is that these responses come from those who drive their own import cars and wear designer clothings
i doubt i have found any values or meaning from my fellowship
on the contrary, a friend of mine who used to abuse drugs now work hard and often donate to the charity and he's not religious
when i see those Christians from my fellowship, i often ask myself, "has the bible taught them anything about life?"
right now, i am starting to lose my faith......
the world is full of shit

remember... when you point your finger at someone, three fingers are pointing back at you

2005-05-13T01:57:00.000-04:00

well guys... i know i should learn from that old sayin too... haha... i'm such a hypocrite

i always complain about this and that even though i may not be the perfect guy too

anyway, i really wanna rant about some ppl

first of all, what the hell is wrong with those politicians from the states… ALWAYS pointing finger acting like they have done nothing wrong… seriously, what the fuck! First of all, they always try to fuck with china cuz Chinese government doesn’t have a good sense of human right, well…. have those Americans forgotten about their problems with racisms? Just a few decades ago, they still have separate washrooms for the “whites” and the “blacks”… nonetheless, racisms still occur in the states, man. Okay… what about the beef between north Korean and the states about the nuclear weapons. I bet my ass that the states have hundreds of nuclear warheads…

the other group of people I really hate is those critics. they haven’t done jackshit for the society except criticizing things that they themselves can never achieve. Movie critics… music critics… etc. all are shitheads… if you can do a better job than the artist you are criticizing, you can criticize ALL you want… what’s worse is that they sometimes make you feel like shit for loving the movie or music that they hate

well, the worst kind of finger-pointing shitheads is those ….. haha I don’t know exactly how to put this… let me give you an example…

one day I accidentally came across a star wars forum (ps: i do watch star wars but i’m not a fan)… I was literally shocked

I see all these people posting about how they hate george lucas (the director of the movies in case you don’t know) yet they talk about how much star wars memorabilia they’ve collected or how much time they’ve spent on the new star wars games. my God, to me, what they are doing is licking lucas’ ass while complaining about him…. You know what I’m sayin… if you hate him so much, why not boycott his work….

They make me sick~!

what the hell is wrong with some of those "humane" social-workers or lawyers in canada

2005-05-07T01:07:00.000-04:00

i don't usually listen to radio talk shows... but i'd like to listen to them when i'm cooking in the kitchen, haha, just to keep me from boredom while doing stuff like egg whipping, etc

well, there is this show on the chinese station (in toronto) that i have listened for several times cuz i couldn't change the channels due to dirty hands and stuff....
sometimes, the host invites some lawyers or social workers to talk about bullshit like how they intend to solve the current problems with the welfare system or perhaps the problems with homeless people... the reason i said that their ideas are bs is becuz most of them are pretty shit that they have never thought about the consequence of their "plans"

i'm particularly pissed at a lawyer... she hopes to change some immigration policy to allow the parents of legal residents to immigrate to canada...
it sounds very humane and reasonable? who doesn't want to get his/her mom and pop to reunite in his/her new home in canada
the truth is... according to the current policy, in order for you to "invite" your parents, you have to have a certain amount of income. the amount isn't much. the government just wants to make sure that you ain't inviting more people here to get welfare from the government and such that you can provide support for the ones you invite. that sounds VERY reasonable
well... that lawyer wants to ban this policy. she thinks it's inhumane to separate offsprings from their parents just because the offsprings can't even provide for themselves here. In fact, she is already startin a campaign or something
she said, "even if this new immigrant doesn't have a job and is getting welfare regularly, he/she still deserves to reunite with his/her parents, even though we have to provide welfare for 3 instead of 1 ... it's just a small price for us to pay"

fuck this shit... seriously... you can say i'm mean... but i am realistic... our country ain't the richest... many people here are still under poverty and you often see homeless people in toronto... if we can't even provide for these people, do you think we can afford to invite more people to canada and pay for their living expense? do you think it's rather HUMANE to see people living on the street and suffering from hunger
man... these damn lawyers.... they have nothing better to do than coming up with ridiculous plans for the sake of publicity
seriously... what a bunch of fucking squares...

the beef between chinese and japanese

2005-04-28T23:38:00.000-04:00

i don't usually watch the news. however, i can't help but notice the current beef between china and japan. i just want to say, "What the fuck?!?" *no offense to any japanese if ur reading this (but fuck you, man)*
i thought it's settled already. all the chinese wanted from japnese is a simple documented apology for what they've done back in WWII.
well, for those of you who don't know about this... there was a massacre in nahjing. japanese soldiers killed and raped thousands of people. is it too damn hard to say, "we're sorry that we killed your people"
right now... not only are the japanese ignoring the chinese's demand, they are simply pretending the whole thing never happened?
seriously, What The Fuck?
oh, those who got raped are also demanding little monetary compensation as well, come on, man, they are asking (altogether) 100million yen, which is around 500k canadian dollars ...
is it too much to ask? the daily revenue brought by japan's porn industry far exceeds 500k canadian dollars... my God, those japanese soldiers gangraped them........
hey, for those of you who would accuse me of stereotyping or anything, well, all i can say to them is, "fuck you, numbnuts"
japan is rejecting the demand for a simple apology as a nation, not as an individual

am i a good Christian?

2005-04-28T01:48:00.000-04:00

i have been going to churches for quite a while ... in fact... i started to believe in God since i was 8 when i was forced to go to a religious primary school back in HK... it was just the "trend" for parents to send kids to religious schools (at least it WAS among friends of my parents)

i know i haven't been a perfect Christian for quite a while as well... i swear, i drink, i do a lot of other things that might be frowned upon by other Christians... meh! maybe they are just too uptight

however, a friend just asked me a question recently and it just fucking struck me... "do u consider urself a good Christian if u don't produce any "fruits"" (what he meant is... "how come you don't spread the gospel")

i still can't get this shit outta my head right now... SIGH! in Christianity, the whole salvation thing is about recognizing God (Jesus Christ) as your savior. in another word, you either believe in this God or ur going to hell...
but i just cant imgaine that Christianity is making millions of innocent ppl going to hell
seriously... many people like those buddists.... are indeed very nice people... they might not have committed ANY crimes in their lives...... they don't deserve to go to hell...
just becuz ppl believe in this God, doesnt make them any better than other nice people around the world? i know i sure aint

why should i insist that they are going to hell....
should i simply renounce my faith?

right now... haha... im going through this whole mid-life-religious crisis >_<

do you feel secured?

2005-04-26T19:39:00.000-04:00

have u ever wondered about ur status among ur relatives... ur friends... ur colleagues... etc...
insecure....
do u care if u r hated by someone u know... someone close to u...
i am pathetic...